Irony of life

Till now, I have spent half of my life thinking why am i doing what I am doing.. Is this really what I ever wanted or will want...
People always ask questions like where do you see yourself 5 years from now, 10 years down the line.. what are your plans for the future....
Why nobody asks themselves.. when I will grow old and look back at these days... will I be able to smile thinking that yes I have live life to the fullest.. that I have given time to myself.. given time to my thoughts, my passion, my love...
or will I be facing the situation where my future has engulfed my past, my present.. and now I am not left with anything ....
I am growing old now....I have done everything that was in my power to do... I want to take some rest now, want to spend some time with my family... but they are so unknown to me... ha, I didnt get time to spend time with my children when they were growing.. there were always projects.. always deadlines to meet... and now well we dont have much to talk about...
They are busy, and I can see them going in the same direction as me.. but they dont listen to me anymore... they say that you have lived your life your own way.. let me live mine...

There he is standing among the crowd
trying to figure every passerby
feeling lonely sometimes
but happy too,
coz he know that he doesn't know all
but those walking by are disillusioned
with their own understanding
and this amuses him

Zahir

"Can u hold it", he asked me. And I said sure, holding something as small as pebble is not difficult. But then again he asked,"Are u sure you can hold this".
I said, 'Man, u don't worry. It's so small, I'll not let it go anywhere". So he said that of you are so sure, then take it.
And well, as soon as I held it in my hand, I have to apply my full strength 100%.
I asked him why is it so that when you were holding it, u dont seem to require much effort. but here look at me, I am so drained. And what it is that I am holding?
He said, ' Its PASSION. If you try to hold it too tightly, it becomes obsession and heavy to hold. If you try to hold it too lightly, it becomes wind and you lose it. You have to hold it in a manner that it gives energy to you, not take it from you".