why it is difficult to let go !!!

I know that everyone has to go.. have read about it.. seen it in the movies..

but reality is tough...

its very hard to let go.. your brain do not want to believe that person is not there anymore...

that you will not be able to talk to that person anymore..

when you will reach home... he will not be sitting there and waiting for you eagerly...

and then suddenly life does not make sense...

it makes me wonder...

whats the hurry if I too have to go after sometime...

why to fight over petty things when life is so fragile ...

why not spend time with people who are dear...

now I regret not spending enough time with him..

always busy in books.. movies.. parties.. TV.. everything that is considered to be cool...

except spending time back at home with people you love...

it does not make sense .. right..

its hard to believe... and its still harder to know that you are so far away from all that you will never reach in time..

is everything around me is more important than that....

those tears shed and unshed makes me feel sad...

sad about the state I am living in...

Is this the time to leave everything or still some more shocks will make me wake up and change my perspectives...

may be I need some more shocks to shake me out of my slumber and reach out...

I just hope that day comes before someone is writing the same stuff for me..

I just hope...