Walking on the pavement

Looking at the pavement

    made up of light and dark stones

some are big and some are small

    some have been pressed down due to the weight

some have fallen out loose

    some are smooth 

and some have cracks

    Is this not similar to our life

on the road called life

    everyday we take a step

some days we land on a dark stone

    life feels a little gloomy

some days we land on lighter stones

    and life gets a little more joyful

some days due to the stress

    the stones gets weighed down

some days just zoom past   

    on the smooth stones

some days we just can't take it anymore

    and cracks appear in the facade

Life is like that

    walking one step at a time

not all is dark and rough

    days of joy will also come

Just keep on walking !!!!!!

Lines in my hand !

Looking at the lines in my hand

So many of them

Some are long and some are short

Criss-crossing each other at random

They say your destiny is 

Located somewhere between these lines

I try to look at my hand every now and then

Trying to figure out what these lines hold for me

When I look at them 

They look like my life

Cross-roads where they don’t know 

which path to choose

Some just breaks in middle

As if lost and don't know where to continue

My hands are getting shrivelled

These lines which holds my destiny

Some of them are fading now

Some are getting mixed

Looks like it is time for new change to arrive

New destiny has to be written 

Somewhere between the lines

New lines are going to emerge.

These lines in my hand

so many of them

Part of me

Still unknown to me

Window

 I always looked out through the window. No matter whatever the weather is, whether visibility is there or not. I will still open the window and try to see.

What do I want to see is not clear to me. Day after day, with a deep longing I keep on going to the window and seek something out.

Since when I am doing this or how many years have passed since then. I am not sure of that. This ritual for me feels like started forever and ever in time. People do relent after few days, some after few months and some after few years. But my heart doesn't listen. Like a clockwork I go and see out the window seeking don't know what.

This seeking, this looking out, looking at the endless possibilities gives me a kind of hope. Everyday I push myself to go through the day so that tomorrow I can stand at the window to gaze at infinity.

I stand here in my complete element without anything to hide. I am open to seek, open to change. This window provides a realm of infinite possibilities. One just need to wait patiently, calming one's mind, let the mind come at rest. And once you find what you seek, well nothing else is left to seek.

Perception

 Boundless boon has been given to me in life

    Want to share what has been given

        To me freely by almighty without anything in return

But why is it so difficult to give out

    Receiving is more easy than giving

        It's not that I do not want to give

Thought of other's opinion bind my hand

    is it ok to give

        are they ok to receive

Perception of one's reality is  so different

    from the perception one wants to create.

                

Life

 What do you think when you think about life

    About the future which you want to create

        About the past which has gone by with some happy memories and regrets

            About the present which is your are living everyday

What I think   

    There is nothing to think about

        Just live in the moment

            whatever is gone is gone

                whatever will be will be

Que Sera Sera !!!!!!

What is this state!!!

Blank mind with multiple thoughts .....

Music , life, laughter

 Music is life

    Music lights up everything

Sway with music

    Smile with music

Laugh with music

    Live life with music

Energize yourself with music

    What else is there to do

Just Live, listen and enjoy !!!!!

Not able to leave myself behind

 Life has been kind in more than one way

    But still I wonder sometime why am not able to leave myself behind !

So many people have come my way

    shouldering my responsibilities

        giving a helping hand

            supporting me without asking for anything in return

                But why am I not able to leave myself behind !!

There is this boundary which I have created

    I am not able to cross it

       The me within me is always fighting

            not letting me open up and just be me

                Why am I not able to leave myself behind !!!

            

Can you still feel it

 Can you still feel it. 

that gentle breeze in your hair

that earth underneath your feet

that raindrop on your face

that chill on your skin

that warmth of the sun

that sky over your head

that sound of birds

or

is it a mad rush to just go from one place to another

is it a mad rush to complete one work after another

is it a mad rush to beat traffic

is it a mad rush to binge watch one more series

is it a mad rush to make one more dollar

Can you still feel it

    Do you wish to feel it again.

To take a breath and just feel

    Then do that.. 

Take a breath and just stay still 

    till you can feel it all again

Faith

 Every time I think about faith, it just astonishes me

How much it matter in life

Struggle seems a little bit less..

Pain eases a little...

Tears of gratitude flows through eyes..

Faith always sees me through...

When no one feels around

the faith on that One Force

Of some bigger plan which I am not privy of

Of the strength which I hold in me

Of all the good which is around

Few hands reach out to steady me

Unknowingly good people come my way

Make me feel like it's alright

Just a little bit more patience

Just one more step

Just one more day

And it's going to be better.

What it feels like !

 Sadness what it feels like

    blank both in mind and on paper

Tiredness what it feels like

    pain in body or numbness of mind

Despair what it feels like

    doing things but never enough

Loneliness what it feels like

    not able to feel happiness around

Story

Every Life holds a story

    Though it may not be like a movie

A movie is 3 hrs long

    but life is different

Some moments capture

    whole essence of a movie

and some moments

    well, they just are...

moments in life story

    has stillness, silence

some are just stuck

    you can't walk out

You have to live all moments

    the one you want to avoid

the one you wish never happened

    the one you want to relive again

the one you hold dear in your heart

    though its not like a movie

not so exciting

    but every life story has something

        worth to live for....

Am I still there…

 Its not that things are not understandable

Even the issue is not that it is not doable.

Or I have lost the visibility

Its the will to do, to face the day, 

That is getting lost.

Its not that I am all alone struggling here

Even the issue is not that I am not getting support

Its just that the mind is not able to focus

That little voice in my head is lost

Its not that there is no light at the end of the tunnel

Or problem will not go away

Its just that light looks to far

That little zeal to walk is lost

Life is so much more that this 

There are million things to do

So many dream are left for one day

Its just that the route looks to be long

That little hope of those dream is lost

Final Solace is Music

 Anguish, pain, frustration..  these have been my partners for long

Slowly silently moving along in shadows

Sometimes when I come in light I forget about these shadows

But they have been my companion for long

Everytime I am in shadows, I grope around to find my way out

I sometime try to talk or try to make sense out it

Try to explain the feelings, the inner fight which goes on

This burden seems to heavy to bear sometimes

But nothing works out, not able to relate 

not able to trust, 

but everytime I turn around, I find solace in music.

Its always there, echoing my thoughts 

connecting to my soul, let me be at peace.

What else can one want, when you have music.

Let music do the talking .. and be at peace.